Geek. Fangirl. A place for stuff and nonsense.
At the moment, expect to see a lot of Dragon Age and Avengers, mixed with a little Vampire Diaries, Doctor Who, and Game of Thrones/ASoIaF. And musicians, always musicians.
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
That doesn’t mean it’s enough, every day, or even most days. I still get frustrated. I still get into the funk of but what if I’m just delusional and arrogant? I still worry that people would far rather I shut up and go away, because who cares about these women NPCs I’m writing about, especially when I pair them with more popular characters?
I worry that people resent me, or that they think I’m writing self-insert fanfiction using an NPC as a mask. I worry that I’ll disappoint the small but dedicated audience I’ve been fortunate enough to accumulate.
I worry that if I write too much, people will hate me, and that if I write too little, everybody will leave.
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This is another tangential point to the whole thing - the fact that a good many of us worry about all of these things when we’re writing for a fannish audience. I think it’s largely due to the fact that there are a whole lot of us who suffer from depression or some other kind of mental issue, because these are the kinds of thoughts that can pervade someone’s (my) entire life if I’m not careful.
In other words - you’re not alone, bb. These kinds of thoughts can suck all the life out of you. I wish there was an easy way around them, but I certainly haven’t found one yet. All we can do is keep pushing back against them, because there are moments when everything clicks and none of it matters any more. And those are the moments I live for. <3
(Source: minorearth)
Rambling today, because I’ve been thinking about this sort of thing all week.
There’s always some kind of discussion/vague argument going around about writing/creating for yourself versus creating for an audience. There are those who say “you should always create for yourself! If you’re not, you’re doing it totally wrong!” And there are those who say “When you’re an artist, of course you’re creating for an audience, it’s a human urge to want acknowledgement for the things you create!” As with pretty much every argument everywhere, my feelings about this have come to lie somewhere in the middle of these two. (It’s the eternal curse of being a Libra: always occupying the middle ground, never getting the pleasure of feeling righteous about one side or another. Heh.)
